A few weeks ago I mentioned I might be ready to stick my toe back in the dating pool. I was tossing the idea around, not really sure if that is what I wanted. Saying it out loud to see what it sounded like. My life is very full at the moment. I am committed to my half marathon training to the exclusion of almost everything else. What I mean is that my training schedule and the preparation that goes into it trumps almost everything. Of course my children and their needs come first but anyone that truly knows me will tell you, this is important to me and I am serious. I am dedicated, committed; insane about this training and completing the Middle Half…guns a blazing!
But I don’t have to tell any of you this because you know me. You read my blog and we are possibly personal friends outside the blogsphere. You are paying attention to the things that are important to me. You value me in some way.
Imagine my feelings when I get a facebook email this week by a person that I have known a long time, asking me out for a “date/eat/movie” on Friday night if I wasn’t busy. My first reaction wasn’t a good one because I immediately felt that I am obviously not valued or important enough for a phone call. I have a landline and a cell so it isn’t like I am unreachable. Then I let my drawers get in a twist at the Friday night part. I haven’t made it a secret that I do not go out at night, especially before my run days, and on Saturday mornings I am up before Mr. Rooster meeting my run group for our long runs. I was as polite with my response as I could be and said that until my training and race were over I didn’t go out at night. I didn’t want to hurt his feelings because we are friends and that isn’t my way. Then later in the evening I noticed he posted a pitiful me status that I am pretty sure was directed at me. I may be in the wrong here, but I refuse to feel bad about saying no.
This brings up another problem. The past three times I have been asked out on a date has been via facebook email. COME ON! Guys, we are all in our 40s here and if you aren’t man enough to call me on the phone then you aren’t man enough for me to go on a date with. Period. I am worth more than that. Perhaps this all means I am really not ready to wade back into the murky dating waters? I would like to think it is just because the right one hasn’t come along yet. Or perhaps the right one hasn’t run along yet. Ha-ha!
So since I’m not going out on Friday night, I will eat something clean and healthy to fuel my body and hit the hay early because on Saturday my run group is scheduled for 9 miles! I’m a bit nervous about it much like I was about the 8 miles simply because I have never done that much before. I know I can do it though. I’ll have my support group with me, my running buddies, great coaches and mentors.
A running buddy pointed out this week that we are just two months away from the Middle Half. *nervous excitement* Sometimes it seems so far away but in reality it will be here before we know it. All of the people in my training group have really been giving it their all, especially on our Saturday group runs. I have never seen such a collection of dedicated people. We struggle sometimes but we are there to help each other along with encouraging words or to run along side. I have made some awesome new friends. I am blessed.
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| A few of my wonderful 1/2 marathon running buddies. |
This Saturday, while I am out there wondering how in the world I’ll ever finish those 9 miles upright I’m going to remind myself of some of my earlier words. I am doing it and I will successfully complete it because I VALUE myself.
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