Help!

I’ve fallen but I will get up.

We’ve all seen the commercials where some poor soul has fallen and called out for help to no avail.  Then the commercial announcer tells us we never have to be in this situation if we call this number NOW!  The next scene the poor one has fallen again but this time is rescued thanks to their trusty new apparatus.  Too bad life isn’t like that.  But isn’t it?

If you have read much of my previous attempts to blog and be open with my struggles you will remember I was travelling down the path of being healthy.  I was doing a good job of staying on the path and then I lost sight of the goal by worrying about all the little things.  I couldn’t see the forest for the trees. Forget that I had lost *insert number here* pounds --- I still had, in my own mind, *insert number here* pounds left to go!  

So hyper focused on what I still had to left to accomplish, I was unable to remember how far I had already travelled.  How successful I was.  How worthy I was.

I am here to shoulder past my embarrassment to say to you all I let myself down. I forgot that I am worthy.  I am fluffier than I was the last time I posted.  Shoot, let me just call a spade a spade, I am fatter than I was the last time.  I fell off the proverbial diet horse.  But I am worthy.  I am worth more than the life I am living now.  My children are worth more than the love I give myself now.  I am worthy.

So, all that being said, I am here to say, I am worthy.  I am worth the struggle and the effort it is going to take to get my crap back in order.  I don’t know if I will ever be the raging runner that I once was but you know what?  That is OK.  Now I wear the mantle of SUPER BAND MOM and it keeps me busy.  But I am worthy.

Today is the first day of the new path.  I am worthy.  

Time for a new beginning!

Your beginnings will seem humble, so prosperous will your future be. ~ Job 8:7