Taking a chance on me

If you change your mind, I'm the first in line

Honey I'm still free

Take a chance on me ~ ABBA

I have decided to take a chance on me. 

After my epiphany the other day that I AM WORTHY and something needed to change I called my girl at MRC and made an appointment.  Even though I had some issues the last go around I was successful with the program unlike any other I have ever tried.  And believe me I’ve tried just about every one! A pow-wow with plain talk and I made the decision to go back on program.  This time I am making a promise to myself --- REALISTIC EXPECTATIONS!

   

No matter how much weight I am able to successfully loose I am going to remind myself this isn’t a competition.   This is for me. If I make it a competition with anyone or anything else I doom myself to failure.  Been there, done that.   I’m taking a chance on me.

I began in earnest Friday and went for an early weigh in Monday to get myself back in the habit.  I was greeted with big smiles by the girls, a two pound loss and a normal blood pressure reading!  I felt great.  Yes, it is only 2 out of *insert number here* but hey, I was glad to see the number go DOWN for a change.   Tomorrow is my next weigh in and I am going with a positive outlook.  This is about me getting back on the road to being healthy. 

This week also saw the beginning of my kiddos’ band camp.  They have been working hard and having a more balanced and healthy menu has really been a benefit.  

I know this isn’t going to be a path of sunshine and lollipops the entire way.  There will be hills and struggles but I’m worth it.  My kids are worth it. 

I changed my mind about how I was living.  I am first in line for me.  I’m taking a chance on me.

Again I saw that under the sun the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, nor bread to the wise, nor riches to the intelligent, nor favor to those with knowledge, but time and chance happen to them all. ~ Ecclesiastes 9:11

Help!

I’ve fallen but I will get up.

We’ve all seen the commercials where some poor soul has fallen and called out for help to no avail.  Then the commercial announcer tells us we never have to be in this situation if we call this number NOW!  The next scene the poor one has fallen again but this time is rescued thanks to their trusty new apparatus.  Too bad life isn’t like that.  But isn’t it?

If you have read much of my previous attempts to blog and be open with my struggles you will remember I was travelling down the path of being healthy.  I was doing a good job of staying on the path and then I lost sight of the goal by worrying about all the little things.  I couldn’t see the forest for the trees. Forget that I had lost *insert number here* pounds --- I still had, in my own mind, *insert number here* pounds left to go!  

So hyper focused on what I still had to left to accomplish, I was unable to remember how far I had already travelled.  How successful I was.  How worthy I was.

I am here to shoulder past my embarrassment to say to you all I let myself down. I forgot that I am worthy.  I am fluffier than I was the last time I posted.  Shoot, let me just call a spade a spade, I am fatter than I was the last time.  I fell off the proverbial diet horse.  But I am worthy.  I am worth more than the life I am living now.  My children are worth more than the love I give myself now.  I am worthy.

So, all that being said, I am here to say, I am worthy.  I am worth the struggle and the effort it is going to take to get my crap back in order.  I don’t know if I will ever be the raging runner that I once was but you know what?  That is OK.  Now I wear the mantle of SUPER BAND MOM and it keeps me busy.  But I am worthy.

Today is the first day of the new path.  I am worthy.  

Time for a new beginning!

Your beginnings will seem humble, so prosperous will your future be. ~ Job 8:7