Some days are harder than others as we all well know. Today had been one of those that I just seem
to count the hours until I can crawl back in bed and pull the covers over my
head. Is 3:30 too soon? What about 5 or maybe 6?
This is the time of Empty House Syndrome and I’m feeling the
hit very hard. Friday night was an exercise
in NOT consuming everything I could possibly lay hands on or that wasn’t nailed
down. Saturday started off
wonderfully. I met some of my running
girlfriends bright and early, had a good run and then retired to a favorite
coffee shop with one of my best girls, Cheryl.
We laughed, chatted and I soaked up the fellowship because deep inside I
was already lonely. OK, suck it up! After leaving the coffee shop I treated
myself to something I’ve had my eye on for quite some time. It was a silly, frivolous purchase but it
made me happy.
Today has been a total wash.
I don’t even know what to say here other than from the moment I crawled
out of bed it has been a struggle. I’ve
done nothing but spin my wheels. Why do
I allow myself to get in these emotional situations?
Tomorrow I am meeting with my bestie to get our run on and I
am keeping fingers, toes and eyes crossed that a run and chat with her will get
me straightened out. If not, I’m not
sure how I am going to make it through the week.
Say a prayer for me, my friends?
I do have some good news!
I have mentally and financially committed to running the Country Music
Half Marathon in April 2012. I am excited. I’ve also decided to repeat the half training
program to prepare for this undertaking.
Oh, did I mention I’m committing to running at least 4 half marathons in
2012? If I can just wade through the abyss
that is the last few weeks of 2011 I KNOW it will get better starting with the
Resolution 5K run on New Year’s afternoon.
What a fantastic way to start off the New Year.
I’m not sure if I will be posting until after the first of
the year. So, if I don’t let me say:
MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the
LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future
and a hope.” - Jeremiah 29:11
2 comments:
glad to see that you are working through this time just think there was probably a time when you would not/could not even share what you were feeling. growth is relative and a problem defined/exposed/shared is a problem half solved.
Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!
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